Labels: personal , thoughts. Such a nice read :. Also not so relevant but funny , Atari geeks Ueberlol! Posted by Optimus at PM No comments:. Labels: coding. Sunday, December 17, Beliefs that bother me. Part I There is something that's bugging me since my youth. It's a bunch of popular beliefs which I keep hearing everywhere and everytime I talk to people. I call them "ethics of our times". Those are the common beliefs of most people in society. Everyone of you is already perfectly aware of these "universal" beliefs. The most common of them revolve around life. Especially the thought that I don't have a life and that this ain't "good" became rather tiresome.
I've struggled trying to give proper excuses to myself about the being I am, as long as trying to defend against the criticism from the others upon my life. Later, it was me who've let these ideas to spawn a demon inside my head, constantly asking me whether I qualify for a life today. Thus, I didn't need people around me anymore to tell me that I have no "life" and that this ain't "natural" and so on.
Alone, I'd still have to bother with those beliefs that had evolved later into obsessive thoughts. As I know more about myself now, I truly believe that my obsessive-compulsive nature morphed these thoughts into a chronic obsession. Cliche quotes I've heard in life: You are a nerd and that's not very good. Why aren't you just like the other people?
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You should have several interests. You must be balanced. It's not good to be focused. It's not natural to be in such an age and not have any girlfriend. Each person must have one favorite music group and one kind of favorite music to be normal. Wasting your time with computers, RPGs and other time-critical hobbies is not good if it doesn't give any profit. I don't understand why do you spend your time in something as useless! When you grow up, you will be sad that you've wasted your life.
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Nerds are defined by ten laws. You qualify for a nerd according to these rules and that's not good. Girls are the meaning of life. And that's what you are missing! Find that and you will remember my words.. Pan Metron Ariston. I know that you might either disgrace these words or identify yourself in some. I am not reactive about their validity but what makes me wonder is the predictable and soulless way they are expressed by most of the people I've encountered in life. And living by that definition because it gives them the feeling that they belong somewhere, that they all agree in a common sense and practice upon that in life.
The aura of people's voice that I received while listening to their words, where kinda emotionless, strictly defined, like they are living as they claim and oppress me to live the same way, for the simple reason that everyone lives the same way and this is the way everyone should be. There is no deep and true emotion in living, it's like these people act in life in ways that are considered normal and not because they purely enjoy it.
And these people doesn't seem to care about "helping" me as they claim As if I asked for their advice ;P , but rather concentrate on preaching about what's life and how they have "succeeded" in it while I didn't. It's like they want to fullfill their ego. And later they tell me how miserable I will be if I don't follow their path. But if they constantly scream that I am "miserable" then I'll start believing it! Roughly, so odd was the feeling I received over all this criticism in the way it was expressed to me by most people around me.
What they don't understand is that I haven't choosen to be like this! I wasn't deviating from the average person because I suddenly made a thought that maybe it's better to be like this. I have another theory about this which I'd try to explain later. What I received is an arrogant attitude, which is like I am a clueless child that doesn't know what's good or not for me, it's like I "decided" to be lonely, unsocial, diferrent, weird, deviant because I suddenly made the "false" thought or because I am lazy, spoiled, wrong and they have to tell me.
The way they try to "help" me is like blaming me that I have taken the "wrong" path. How much do I friggin hate it when some "cool" guy approaches me to break my nerves to say in a witty way: "You know guy? You shouldn't be like that, it's not good I tell you. You will be unhappy in your life, what you are doing here is wrong and hey look at those chicks, great eh? You don't like them? I sometimes tried to be social without enjoying but just for the mere feeling that I am "normal" for one day.
But it was still a struggle, especially when I "had" to do it. They don't understand the damage they've done to me and they call that "I am trying to help! That's also why I despise "predictable" beliefs which are so easilly spreaded around because they sound so "simple" and "right" and everyone clicks on them Called also memes.
I feel that people are such ignorants to listen to me.
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Even now I know more about myself and the whole issue, trying to give my best to make them understand doesn't work. I receive the same cliche phrases and common beliefs back. They don't even care about why I am actually so diferrent. They care only about watching me becoming as "normal" as them but for what reason?
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They also confuse the reasons with the results, I'll explain myself later on that My whole personality evolved based on my struggle. I became quite defensive towards what people call "real life" and the spreading of common "truths" that people accept as they are because everyone says so. Most of my personal beliefs are constructed upon my worries on this issue. Most people don't understand that there are several "facts", several "truths", several "worlds" out there, as many as all of us.
Each of them thinks that if a way of life works for him, it's a universal truth that all of us should follow. The quote below speaks ironically about this..
I try my best to be just like I am but everybody wants you to be just like them. After so many years! Even though I am closer to knowing and believing in my path now.
My wish is to have a free mind and live life as I enjoy not being oppresed by the "ethics of life" of our times Quest for freedom. To know and use my knowledge for the good of all. Quest for truth. And then I have a dream. Exactly these three cores matter a lot for me and are main parts of my personality.
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They are all connected in my life.. It's too late and I have to stop here. Unfortunatelly I haven't written all of which I wanted to and not as comprehensively or briefly as I wished I was in a rush , thus I'll continue another time in a next post Part 2. I'd like to talk there more about the people that I call "deviants", what's the meaning of "diferrent" compared to "social", to make an interesting analysis upon that and what we perceive with these things and then speak of some cases of people which gave me hope that someone might think diferrent even not a special person but the common Joe, so surprising!
Plus some interesting medical cases that shows off my beliefs. I had a dream.. Posted by Optimus at PM 6 comments:. Labels: thoughts. Friday, December 15, Greek game developers. Η ελληνική game programming σκηνή είναι μεγαλύτερη απ'ότι περίμενα. Πολλά από αυτά τα project δεν τα ήξερα.